As a teenager and young adult, judging and comparing myself to others seemed to come naturally. Most of the time, I felt I couldn't measure up. Judging myself so harshly created a war between my body and me. I was rejecting my body and my true self at an alarming rate.
Although I wore a smile & appeared confident on the outside - inside I was frustrated, overwhelmed, disappointed and sad. This kind of thinking was quickly leading me down the path of self-destruction.
It was scary not knowing HOW I would become a strong, confident young woman who loved ‘the skin she was in.’ I really wanted and needed to believe that it was Possible to believe in me.
Self rejection is a dark place to be and there is a fine line between here (the healthy, self confident me) and there (the critical, self consumed me).
When I ask myself, 'Do I really want to go back to that dark, lonely place just so I can fit into those jeans?’
I think about it for a moment, and only a moment, and I say ‘NO WAY!’ I am committed to choosing me! I am committed to being on my team!
Sara
xoxox
P.S. I wrote the song and created the video ‘At War with Myself’ to let everyone know that even though we may be struggling, We Are Not Alone!
http://www.youtube.com/upowerconcerts#p/u/6/ItHzh6iZFuM
